**First of all. Wow. I am giddy--21 followers. Let me confess, I don't like the term followers. Friends I shall say instead. Woohoo. Thanks to all my new friends. I've made sure to return the favor.
I do wonder how everyone keeps up in Blog World? I find myself wanting to read and comment on all the notifications of new blog posts each morning. But then I wouldn't be able to keep my date with Gilad, Wii Fit, clean, do laundry, check my email and write. Whew. I do try my best to read through all posts and comment as I get the chance. I'm still trying to get through all the Love At First Sight stories, too.**
On we go:
I'm not sure what shade of green I'm waiting on. Wish I knew. I've edited Roulette over and over and over...I've a good query letter. I had incredible help from some great critters, including a handful of published (award-winning and bestselling) authors on my query. I should just send it already, right? I even have my agent folder all set up in order. So what the heck is wrong with me?
Every time I read the first 2-3 chapters I freak out. What if they're not good enough? What if nobody even wants a partial? What if nobody likes it? I don't get a do-over. Once Agent X, Y and Z reject my query/synopsis/partial, that's it. I'm done. So what if they all reject it?
Can you see I'm obsessing a tad.
I know Roulette is good. It's publish worthy--I'm sure of it. So are hundreds of others in the slush pile. Only a small percentage get that chance. I still fall in love with Kasia and Jake when I read through chapters. I still get angry at the men who are up to no good. I'm thrilled when things turn around for Kasia and she gets what she deserves. There are parts that still suck me in as if I'm just a reader.
Then there are parts that are just...sparse. Need more foam, I think (see Piedmont Writer's blog for the awesome metaphor).
My biggest fear/obsession isn't the story. It's the word count. Agents harp and harp on it. I don't want to write a book of purple prose. I want to tell Kasia's story. So that's what I did. But, now, I think Kasia could use a little background ambiance.
So, what is it that you obsess over in your writing?